There are days when you suddenly think of someone, knowing he/she had been missing in your life. You ask yourself "why?", but sometimes there's just no exact answer to your many questions. You wished he/she is there at the lowest peak of your life to help, but the fact is that he/she aint there anymore. It hits you, he/she is no longer there to back you up, or depend on. There isn't even a chance to say "Thank you, you're my saviour".

Sometimes you can only be that strong to take whatever that comes your way, to certain limits. I've gone beyond, and i'm tired. I can't smile and say it's going to be alright. I did that too many times, it's not working anymore. I have to find another way.

Grow up, you're on your own.

Goodbye for now